Lost one of closest younger brothers on Nov. 7th 2023 My life was still rough from losing my husband now the one brother who was my main support thru that is gone now. 

~ REST IN PEACE Rancher1 aka Terry my beloved ~

MY LIFE ON EARTH HAS BEEN FOREVER ALTERED...

On September 2nd 2021 we both came down with Covid Pneumonia. Battled it at home a few days. On the 7th I had to call 911 for Terry he had a serious AFib episode. They took us together to one hospital, that was the last day I saw him or got to be with him. They had to move him to a special hospital to be able to deal with his dialysis. I was sent home still sick. Then in 2 days I went into a different hospital my fever was high and had bad Pneumonia. Terry was trying to get better we could only text, they had him on a CPAP type unit and our poor kids were fighting to keep in touch with us both and watch our home and kitty and work and keep up with their large family.

Then Terry began to have more difficulty, the PD dialysis wasn't removing enough fluid so his son had to allow them to do the heavy dialysis trying to save him, he went onto a ventilator but being to overloaded with fluid prior to coming down sick they couldn't save him. By the 14th his son got the call to come say goodbye. Meanwhile I am very sick in the other hospital, my kids had me on my cell phone video so I could say goodbye to Terry it was a horrible day I was beyond shattered! He was my entire life for 30 years together, the 23rd of September would have been our 26th Anniversary. I stayed in hospital 4 more days, then my parents came and got me for a few days. I am home still recovering. Now I am having trouble from all the Covid and grief/shock I endured. I have lost near all our income so I am scared of losing my home and things are very hard on me. So today October 4th, 2021 is the first day I have been on Howrse for a month. I am finding it hard to even find joy in things as Terry was my 24/7 world, I feel like only half of myself. 
I am terribly heartbroken and sad without him, life will never be normal again for me, he was my breath of life, my soulmate ...every day is just one more closer to being reunited with him in heaven one day.
 I am 53 yr. old who is a widowed lady as of Sept 14th, 2021... who though currently living in the Valley of the Sun in Arizona.I feel quite misplaced as my Aquarius heart craves living by water and beautiful greenery. Born a farmers Granddaughter in rural north eastern Colorado, lived there until I was 16 and my Mother transplanted us in this desert home for better jobs. I did well and bloomed, learning to swim, become a slightly competitive cyclist riding in charity races and got to own and ride horses finally in my life after loving horses since I was old enough to know what they were. Severe asthma restricted me from them and most pets all my childhood. Met and married the one and only love of my life who used to play here on Howrse as Rancher 1 until 10-2018. We had many years of riding together doing Team Penning together, riding mounted security and doing Tracking for Search and Rescue for a few years before a bad horse accident in 2004 brought my riding days to a halt, taking half my hearing, damaging my vision, balance, spine/neck and changing my world so drastically I have not ridden since. Sadly it was a fall from my best horse ever due to faulty equipment that failed me when needed. Though my body was broken the brilliance of God in my life has come through brighter and brighter since as it was only my faith in Him and His grace, love and healing that has brought me through and sustains me still as I have under gone 8 surgeries since Jan. 2004, 3 directly related to the accident for a spinal fluid leak from my brain cavity into my sinuses from 5 concussions I suffered the day of the fall. Others from a tumor the size of an eggplant that thankfully turned out not to be not cancerous but changed my life again stealing more of my health and may soon be facing perhaps spinal surgeries and stomach surgery. I suffer frequent Migraines, chronic spinal pain, vision and balance problems from Vertigo, struggle with frequent infections including Meningitis yearly these last few years. So if I take a bit to reply please bear with me, my health can take me away for spells but I will always respond as soon as I can.
OCTOBER 2018 - My game is forever changed...I've lost my family being on here with me... my husband who was Rancher 1 (Terry) and our adult son who was Ring Side (Rob) who both played here with me from way back 2009 or so. What happened hit us hard, as many of you knew we nearly lost Terry in 2012 so after his 3 month ICU then rehab facility stays Howrse really became a large part of his occupational therapy after the 2 strokes he suffered during his Aortic Dissection & Aneurysm emergency open heart surgery. So many of you helped keep him going thru his life changes and his game's day to day things to do filled in a lot of time that was stolen with his entire left side damages and losses of ever working or riding horses again. I really hope the MANY good friend of theirs will help me honor them somehow since now their names are even erased today from all our friends lists. They both miss all their friends immensely. If anyone would like to keep in touch via our home email or FB please message me. 12/14/2018